Word of the Year: Create

Note: December was Word-of-the-Year Month at Christine’s Blog.  Each day featured a new guest blogger who chose one word as a way of setting intention for her whole year.  This article continues the series. Today’s guest blogger is Danne Saring.

A Year of breaking out of the mold.

~ “Create” ~

The word “Create” resonated in me for this year and will stay with me and expand through out 2009. It all started with wanting more time for beading in my life.

“I just want to bead” Is all I would say to myself. Sounds silly to me now but I have come to understand that it is so much more and that simple desire touched every aspect of my being.

I was tired of my hectic, drama filled life. I had been commuting 5 hours a day for work and the shift in gas prices had me not making enough money to even treat myself to a dinner out, let alone pay my bills. I was emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted to boot. A 3 year separation from my husband, problems with 2 of my sons and my daughter who lived out of state with my grandchildren was zapping me of any joy. I figured if I could just make something out of my precious beads I would feel better, do something just for me.

Little did I realize at the time just how far reaching this urge to bead would be and the impact it would have on my everyday and on me.

First thing I learned was to be careful what you wish for. I ended up with loads of time when I lost my job. As the financial woes set in I allowed myself to get sucked up even more into what was happening in my life and my children’s. I sunk further than I had been before when time seemed to be my only enemy. After months of hitting brick walls I decided that I had nothing to lose by just beading.

Best thing I ever did!

Looking back I see how amazing it all is. How intuitively I placed myself with the lessons and place I needed to be at just the right time. I spend hours, sometimes as much as 18 hours straight just beading. With every bead I loose myself. Lost in the world of no thought: a prayerful meditative zone where I am safe and at peace with all that is around me.

The simple act of creating with beads began to create an opportunity for me to get to know myself. To see who I was, where I was and where I wanted to be. Amazing how those teeny weeny little beads were to take me down a road and begin to show me how I was the one actually creating a life for myself that I didn’t want and gave me the courage to begin to create a life that I do. The journey isn’t over, and I wouldn’t say that creating a new existence is easy. I am still jobless and ended up relocating to Florida, yet it is all so exciting. I have a lot to change, to learn, to understand, to create ~ but I realize now that the possibilities are limitless.

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