Feeling, Doing, and Choosing Emotions

Written by Christine Kane

In all of the Uber-Human Hyper-Efficient Success-Driven philosophies out there, little attention is given to the emotions. Focus is mostly given to efficiency, visualization, action, and goals.

So what might happen is that those of us who feel deeply, who are sensitive, and who face insecurity could feel like these philosophies simply aren’t cut out for us, or that perhaps we just weren’t meant to be successful or efficient or goal-oriented. Or worse, that something is wrong with us.

Nothing is wrong with you if you’re emotional or sensitive. But you might be using your emotions as an excuse to stay stuck. Here are some perspectives that may help you to grow from your emotions, and quit seeing yourself as the victim of them.

Emotions and “Truth”

I began doing healing work in my early 20′s when I first intended to heal bulimia without drugs or Western medicine. I’ve done energy healing, acupuncture, homeopathy, massage, retreats, meditation and many other modalities and techniques. (Along with songwriting and performing!) All of them contributed to my movement toward wholeness.

At some point though, I realized my emotions continued to get stuck in kind of a default pattern. I’d often end up feeling the same old things, in spite of all of the progress I’d made. With no small amount of pride, I chalked it up to being more sensitive, more authentic, and more emotional than this cold cold world. (A Portrait of the Artist as a Drama Queen.) And yet, I got more and more drained by these patterns.

Then at a workshop, I heard Barbara Waterhouse talk about the untruth of emotions. She said that we all “do” our emotions. We might feel them too, but we choose to DO them. And oddly, I got my biggest teaching not from what she said, but from how the person next to me reacted. This person rolled her eyes, and huffed, “Oh please.”

In her reaction, I saw myself in the past. I saw how vehemently I clung to “my truth!” I saw my own self-righteousness and attachment. In other words, “Don’t challenge my feelings! They’re telling me the truth I want to hear! And that truth is that I’m sensitive and caring, and all of you AREN’T! I’m special!” (And probably, I’m a little stuck, too.)

From that day on, even in my worst self-pitying emotional attacks, I felt this little inner-observer watching me, scratching her chin and thinking, “Hmmmm. Now, I’m doing insecurity. Now I’m doing jealousy. Now I’m doing hopelessness.” Was I “doing” emotions? 85% of the time, I was. The challenge then became to choose differently.

Emotions and Choice

When you hear someone say that you can choose an emotion, your first thought might be that it’s impossible. Emotions just are, aren’t they? Emotions happen!

It takes a high degree of awareness, attention and persistence, but you can choose differently.

Erin Pavlina has a fantastic post on choosing emotions. I burst out laughing when she opted to say to her daughter, “Oh dear, honey. I was hoping you wouldn’t write on your furniture. But don’t stress about it.” If mothers always went through the process Erin writes about, kids would thrive. And her story shows that it is possible to choose a different emotion in the moment.

In my own experience, I’ve actually made myself stop all activity until I was able to raise my emotional level even a notch. Sometimes this has required that I just sit still and ask the question, “Is this true?” Sometimes I’d choose an adaptation of an NLP technique, like looking upwards and breathing. (This usually works best right when you catch the emotion or the thought coming on.) And sometimes, I just said to myself, “Nope! Not putting my energy there right now!”

How you make a different choice is something that comes with practice. This is a process that takes time. (I can’t stress this part enough!) But it is possible. I encourage you to be open to that.

Emotions and Attachment

In the teaching I do, and in the retreats I facilitate, never do I see people clutch to anything so fiercely as their “right” to have their emotions. Reaction can be from surprise to outrage when I offer people the viewpoint that they can begin to choose how they feel.

Eckhart Tolle writes that some emotions serve only to feed the ego. In actuality, the emotion builds you up. In the mind of the ego, you become “morally superior” to whatever the situation is you’re reacting to. You actually become inflated. When you’re raging at the traffic, you make yourself “morally superior” to the traffic. If you furiously state that rich people are all greedy bastards and that wealth is just achieved by unconscious people, then you become “morally superior” to wealth. (Most likely, you’re also driving it away from you!)

Even when you’re deflated in your emotions – guilt, for instance – you feed your ego. It gets to feed on the identity of being “wrong” or “less than” — which can evolve into being “more sensitive then the rest of the world.” (Which ultimately makes you morally superior, yet again!) Emotions can be tricksters. Kind of the ego’s smoke and mirrors.

My view is that many of our emotions keep us stuck (and safe). If, for instance, you want to take more risks and start sending your poetry out to publishers, you’re going to have to deal with the emotions that come up if your stuff gets rejected. For some, that’s a huge pattern to work with. You might not want to have to face all of those feelings, so you stay safe and don’t send out your poems. You think you’re lazy and label yourself a procrastinator, but really you’re just staying safe. You might say that you “can’t take” all that rejection. But what you really can’t take is what you’re telling yourself about all that rejection. Emotions can be powerful teachers. I can testify to that one, baby!

Emotions and Stories

The biggest awakening I’ve had with my own emotional self is recognizing how many of my emotions aren’t even emotions. They’re really just “stories.” When I sit quietly and allow an emotion to be there, I often enforce this rule: No Stories Allowed. (Stories can range from “Poor me” to “Why bother?” to “No one wants me” to “These idiots always screw everything up!” to “I’ll never get this right!”) When I can sit with the emotion, allowing just the emotion to be there without the story that accompanies it, the emotion dissipates pretty quickly. This is good. It allows me to experience that energy without repressing it. Emotions are really not that big of a deal when there’s no story to attach to them. They just are.

Emotions and Goal-Setting

The reason I encourage emotional types to set goals is the great teaching they provide. If you approach your goals, or your intents with awareness, you get to see all of your resulting emotional moments for what they are: old thought patterns.

The key thing about goal-setting is getting clear on what you want. Lots of people aren’t clear on what they want. I don’t think this is because they’re truly unclear. I think it’s because they can feel all of the stuff that will come up to make them grow if they choose to set that goal. All of those emotions come up, and they sink back down.

One of the commenters on my New year’s post wisely wrote about responding rather than reacting. That is the key here. Emotions are often reactions. They are childish. And we give them all our power. Responses go deeper than that. Erin Pavlina made the choice to respond. I constantly make the choice to respond. Setting goals and following through with them can teach anyone how to respond.

Begin to recognize your own emotions as choices, as things that you do. And watch how you grow…

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Joy January 12, 2007 at 8:56 am

Sharon Salzberg says, “We must learn to view the fact that we have negative feelings not as an irreversible personal defect or as some kind of portentous setback on our path to liberation, but simply as the result of conditioned habits of mind.”

For me, anger is easier to relate to old thought patterns – judgement, self-righteousness, unfairness, etc. – than sadness or hurt. When I’m feeling sad or hurt it feels more visceral and from the “deeply sensitive side of me.” Of course, when I explore the source of my sadness or hurt I realize those feeling are also the result of thought patterns.

I’ll bet you get lots of comments on this blog. It might be helpful for you to write, also, about how certain types of people identify themselves as their feelings – they think they are their feelings. Take away their feelings and they have no sense of self. My guess is they will be the most resistant to the ideas you offer here.

You are wise beyond your years!

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christine January 12, 2007 at 9:35 am

Hello Joy… and Good morning! You know, that quote by Sharon Salzberg makes so much sense to me now – and more and more everyday. I NEVER would’ve understood it about seven years ago! I was definitely one of those who thought she IS her emotions. (we enneagram 4′s are like that!) I’m not sure about the comments on this one… sometimes the more intense the topic, the less the comments! (Maybe everyone rushes away from their computers to ponder…or mope.) Thanks!

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Tony D. Clark January 12, 2007 at 9:53 am

I love this post Christine. As someone who works with a lot of folks looking to make big changes in their lives, I know the role both real emotions and “stories” play.

IMHO – Self-defeating stories often stem from worry (or fear). Learning to see stories of a future that does not exist and a past that also does not exist as “made up” can help us to focus on what’s happening right now – the only time we can take action.

I call it “tripping on the way to the life fantastic,” because no one ever achieved success without tripping along the way. But each moment is a do-over and learning how to follow our passions in spite of the possibility of failure, is a great way to go about life.

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christine January 12, 2007 at 10:33 am

Hi there Tony, Great stuff! The “future that doesn’t exist” is quite a big one, isn’t it? And I love the “tripping” phrase. Thanks so much for this….

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Susanne January 12, 2007 at 11:41 am

Hi, I’ve been thinking all day about this. And I’ll sure think about it some more. I think you need a certain mind frame for being able to chose your emotion. For me the first step is to be aware of the emotion and the second – the one I’m currently working on – is to be able to chose not to act on it.

And your post has taught me why I have been “popping back” into being all content so easily. I felt there was something wrong with me, when I had a fight with my husband or son, then leave the scene and feel completely different. I now realize that I chose to concentrate on being aware and mindful again.

Hard to get a grip on it, but I’ll be thinking again.

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yogajenn January 12, 2007 at 2:34 pm

I couldn’t agree with you more! It’s so perfect that I am reading your post on this topic right now…I’ve been really struggling with ‘feeling at the mercy of my emotions’ these days and haven’t found many tools to counter-act them. I read on Steve Pavlina yesterday an old post about ‘overcoming depression’ which says that it is our focus and attention on those things in our life that trigger depressive thoughts, not those things or situations themselves. So by changing our focus, we change that feeling. Of course, much easier said than done. But I know it can be done with conscious awareness and practice as you said.

Even the cycle with cognitive-behavioral therapy says that by changing your actions you can change your emotions which help to then change your thoughts. Since emotions are a reaction to our thoughts, and many of these thoughts are faulty or ‘wrong’ (negative), by taking concrete action we can create new feelings and thoughts. It’s like thinking that people don’t like you…by forcing yourself to go out, you receive positive feedback from other people, you feel good, you re-consider your thoughts and beliefs that people don’t like you. Repeat…

The true practice of Yoga is all about the ‘cessation of thought waves in the mind’ as well. Because the nature of your thoughts, and your emotions, is to constantly change, to come and go, you can’t always ‘trust’ them. And you certainly can’t identify yourself by them. It’s about finding that unchanging ‘knowing’ that is deep within and can only be heard by becoming still and quiet.

Whew! This is a topic close to my heart! I have also been on a healing journey from anorexia/bulimia over the last 7 or so years. I so appreciate your writings, and feel like you are a true kindred spirit and soul sister!! I love the tid-bits on your pets too.

Because I am trying very hard to maintain an intentional and positive frame of mind (LOA, The Secret), I think I need to check out NLP or some other techniques to get these out-of-control emotions reined in a little. If you have any other suggestions, I’d love to hear them. I tend to get discouraged with a business I am trying to get off the ground, and I know that works against me…

Sorry for the lengthy note. Blessings…

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leah January 12, 2007 at 4:02 pm

what a fascinating post! i had to read through it twice and then let it sink in awhile and i think i’m still processing all the information. this working with emotions is difficult, but it’s work that is important. trying to figure out what the stories i tell myself are, whether or not they are true and then letting them go is so tricky. i get so attached to those darn stories. i know i’m learning though. when people in my life recently tried to convince me that i should be angry about something that had occurred, i thought maybe i was repressing some hidden emotions, but after some soul searching i realized i just didn’t want to be angry about it, so i chose not to be. simple as that. it’s not always as simple as that, but isn’t it wonderful when it is?

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Joe January 12, 2007 at 5:56 pm

Wow. I dont think I’ve ever read so much and consistently said “thats right” so many times. Thanks for writing this. Its definitely worth printing out and re-reading.

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Susie January 12, 2007 at 7:45 pm

Wow, what an interesting post…it’s been on my mind all day. After some thought, I’ve realized that so often I use my “reaction emotions” as a way of avoidance; avoiding what I should really be doing or thinking. Asking myself “is this true?” is a great way to realize how I’m reacting rather than responding.

Have you secretly been stalking my life when you gave the example of poems ;-) Recently, after debating a nervous ego, I decided to post a poem I wrote on my blog. Before even posting the poem I started to have feelings of self-doubt, I let myself get all wrapped up in my emotions even before it was added. Then I thought to myself, “Susie, you like this poem, who cares if no one else does, just post it and let it be.” Let it be.

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christine January 12, 2007 at 10:29 pm

Susanne, Yes! That’s right. As much as I haven’t liked the word “discipline” in my life… it seems that a combination of discipline and “mindfulness” is what it takes. Thanks for the note!

yogajenn, hi there! (your comment got put in the spam bin by the blog program. i have no idea why. i’m glad you wrote to Web Guy and let him know!) Thanks for all the compelling thoughts. I’ve had some very big awakenings during yoga classes…especially about comparison and projection. So much wisdom can be gained from that practice. And yes, I DO understand how this side of ourselves can really sabotage the business end of things. Have you studied the enneagram at all? That’s another recommendation! It has truly changed me. Keep in touch!

Leah… yes, but that very moment was a big teacher for you about detachment. so it was simple… but it will help you when the next time comes up that doesn’t feel simple. it makes perfect sense to me what you wrote about! Thanks for the note. (and for reading twice! :-D)

Thanks Joe! I appreciate the kind words… (and you’re welcome for writing it.)

Hiya Susie. And yes, as a matter of fact, I AM stalking you. I was wondering when you’d notice me! (I’m the one in the Celine Dion sparkly dress and strappy sandals running around behind you.) I know how sensitive poets are…and how hard rejection is. (I’ve never been rejected so it’s really just from watching the poets, you know! :-)) That’s why. And I know there’s got to be many timid poets reading this blog!

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Caren January 13, 2007 at 9:51 am

For some reason, I’m able to respond, rather than react to my kids. Since my oldest was born, I was aware of the preciousness of his life and spirit, and sought ways to encourage and protect his deepest self. This brought me originally to attachment parenting, then radical unschooling, and now, consensual living. I had consciously been on a spiritual path before he was born, but needing to ground myself to live in this world and effectively be a mom, I lost connection with myself!! And have been re-connecting over the past few years.

I know I can choose my emotions, and my response to my emotions… unless I’m buried in them! Then I get lost for a while, things kind of go to hell, and I wake back up and start again. (Thank you, Christine, for that. I used to think of that as self-sabotage, and think I had to figure out WHY I do that? What’s WRONG with me? You gave me the perspective to just notice, “Oh. Did that again. Guess I’ll get back up and start again.” Thank you, thank you, thank you.) My meditation practice has deepened my ability to notice the emotion, without getting caught up in it.

Sometimes, something happens that I don’t notice… I was keeping morning pages regularly for about a month, then just stopped. And didn’t even notice that I stopped. It didn’t cross my mind until I was looking for a notebook yesterday, and came across my morning pages one. Oh! Look at that! So I read my entries… and what struck me was that my last entry was about running into a previous lover the day before, someone who had completely broken my heart, left me shattered and gasping for air, moaning on the floor, where I remained for a LONG time, figuratively (and sometimes literally) speaking. Hmmmm… could it be there was something there I didn’t want to see? lol SO I’ve apparently been tangled in emotions without even knowing there were emotions going on. Ummm… OK, except for my increased intake of doughnuts, choosing to get on the computer rather than consciously start my day, increased TV watching… all the signs were there. Guess I wanted to wallow a while. So, this was a wake-up call. WAKE UP!! (Could this be where discipline would have come into play?)

Thanks for the Erin Pavilina link! I’ve visited Steve’s site, and was VERY overwhelmed with the sheer volume of stuff and go! go! go! feeling to it all. I think I’ll enjoy Erin’s blog.

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christine January 13, 2007 at 3:27 pm

Caren, I’ve been hearing more and more about consensual living, and it’s really fascinating. I congratulate you for being a conscious and aware mother. If you had to lose some connection to your “self” with anything, it seems that mothering would be the best place to do that! The one suggestion I woud offer for morning pages is to watch this very thing with them. I think morning pages are great for people who are unaware of their own feelings, unaware of what they want… it can open things up for those people. HOWEVER, for those of us who pretty much steep in feeling and emotion, morning pages can be a little bit like wallowing. I’m in a place where I write as an exercise…I describe things, I revel in things… but I don’t dwell or wallow. I don’t know what kind of rule you’d call it… but if you begin morning pages again, watch that part of you that wants to use them to whine! Yes, I like Erin a lot. Steve’s blog is good for me because his very mental perspective sometimes opens me up a little to say, “hmm. I never thought of it that way!”

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Caren January 13, 2007 at 8:44 pm

Mm-hmm… I used to do that when I journaled, just be negative, negative, negative. I didn’t even realize it until a few years ago I went to a drum camp weekend, which ended up being a spiritual retreat — the drums just opened my heart right up! And when I came back home and read my journal… yuck. I saw it from an entirely different perspective. And made the decision to burn that journal in a huge bonfire at the Lake Eden Arts Festival! Since then, I haven’t sunk so low in my writing where it’s just complain, whine, and moan. And even less so after reading “Ask and It Is Given” and seeing “What the Bleep Do We Know”. (have yet to see The Secret) Thanks for the reminder!

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bridgegirl January 13, 2007 at 11:42 pm

I so appreciate reading all of the comments and seeing links to even more great information.

NLP?

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Dblwyo January 14, 2007 at 9:01 am

You’ve obviously walked a long, challenging path of self-nurturing and your sharing the results is much appreciated. One of things especially interesting is how simply, in day-to-day ‘ordinariness’ you put your thoughts and tools – as you say, hmmm. This is a particularly valuable post that way and it took some contemplation but don’t under-estimated yourself/selves on the emotional side of the mountain. When the bear goes over to see the ‘muy mucho macho’ as Robin Williams calls it one of his very funny but true drive-by comments you’ll find that there’s as much, but different, emotions over there.

And that the Tony Robbins, Zig Zigler arm-waving stuff isn’t really given much credence by the effectives. Rather it’s grasped at and clung to by the folks looking for any answer but their own. A lot of the time they/we supress to emotion to get thru crisis but the really truly effective execs and leaders accept and know emotion and manage and accept them in themselves and others.

Perhaps the key difference is learning to accept we’re all emotional but that one needs to learn to manage those emotions ? Consciously and positively ? Rather than let the emotions manage and control you.

Some years ago there was a bunch of work done in the OCD labs at UCLA med school and the very earliest brain map pictures found the pictures of how the currents flowed. In trying to develop a workable therapy – there’s not been much success – the M.D. in charge complemented showing the patients the maps, teaching them Buddhist ‘minfulness’ meditation and then having second/third stage actions to displace the bad behaviors – slowly – onto good things. Just the early stages showed profound differences on the most basic bio-chemical neurocognition maps. Sorry to get fancy there but the point is emotions are real things and they can be managed. It just takes enormous learning to discover that and that we can then learn to self-consciously re-train them to positive outcomes.

Also interestingly a lot of the theory the treatments appealed to were William James work on Psychology from the 1890s that was lost and ignored as we all got wrapped up in the subconscious meat machine dominates our reactions and is beyond our control. James started with basic physiology as well and built up his whole Psychology from there. Yet it’s only in the last ten years or so that the modern profession is moving beyond looking at all the bad stuff and re-considering the things he studied over a 100 years ago.

While we’re waiting an interesting little book is James’ “Talks to Teachers” which embeds all his pscy work on the mind, processes, habits and conscious self-development thru re-structuring ‘habits’ into a set of simple lectures. Adjusting for language it’s not a bad complete manual to consider.

The doing of course is another little problem.

FWIW my point, if there is, one is that emotions are o.k. The trick is to learn to accet them but make better choices by re-directing their energies and not getting trapped. A path I’m just starting so it’s every encouraging to see how far along you and your readers are and all these different perspectives.

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barbb January 16, 2007 at 12:03 pm

thanks for this post. several thoughts strike me as I read this. This whole process takes a LONG, LONG time. I want success yesterday and this really sets me up for frustration when I feel that I am going backwards. I see now that I am reacting to “my stuff” at work and as I read the post I can feel the emotions lift. Also the “work stuff” is a story, i just have to think quietly about not getting pissed off and choose to look at the story and then change the direction to calmness. (Hope this makes sense) this self monitoring stuff is a challenge but it works with a bunch of practice and determination not to slip back. relapses are allowed.

to all the closet poets, when I go for a long spell without getting an acceptance I ask myself why I am writing and the answer is for me. If I am happy with my writing it really doesn’t matter what the editor thinks. And know the sending stuff out is a crap shoot, the editor may like you or not but you still write for yourself.
I got to run this off and look at the hard copy so ican write on it being the concrete person I am. thanks Christine. bb

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Danielle January 16, 2007 at 3:02 pm

Its eerie how much I’ve been thinking about this topic of late and how appropo your post was for me today. I’ m starting to learn from using ‘Respond’ this year that I have much more power over myself and surprisingly, my environment. There is definitely something to be said for the energy you bring to a situation and I’m really pleased at the ability to diffuse my instant negativity that focusing on that word brings me. Its exciting, powerful stuff.

Thanks for another great post!
-Danielle

(p.s. And the “oh holy s&*^ of a dinner invite from a past love only caused two minutes of abject panic and less than ten seconds of “do my feelings mean ____ or ____ ?” before I shook it off and laughed at the short circuits I’ve gotten stuck in. Ahh… improvement!)

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anne January 16, 2007 at 4:39 pm

Hi Christine,
I am truly impressed at how clearly you explain this complicated ‘truth’!

I also had some breakthroughs with this sort of idea about 7 years ago. I was stuck on identifying myself in a victim-like state brought on by some events of my childhood that I was finding difficult to move beyond. It wasn’t until I saw my attachment to the ‘story’ and the resulting (optional) emotional quagmire that I began to gain some different and better perspective.
I think I have vacillated between being too withdrawn from emotional sensitivity on one side and being too engaged with ‘stories’ and emotional responses on the other. It IS a powerful place in the middle….! And still takes constant awareness for me to remain there.
Weirdly, I have also been learning tremendous things about ‘responding’ from having a dog. We adopted her when she was about 5 months old and she was incredibly sweet and also a bit wild. I vowed to train her well and make her well-mannered. It was frustrating to me when despite all the treats in the world, she didn’t listen, didn’t seem interested in what I wanted and would not walk nicely on a leash. It was not until I saw an episode of the Dog Whisperer (and I don’t like much of his approach in general), that I realized I was not simply ‘responding’, I was reacting to her undesirable behavior. The dog is not deliberately trying to irritate me, she is just reacting to a squirrel or smells or whatever. In order for me to be an effective ‘teacher’ to my dog (and to enjoy our relationship more and for her to respect me more!), I needed to let go of any frustration and stop taking my dog’s behavior personally. And after I realized that, it feels ridiculous getting annoyed with her.
She is now a year or so old and sits, downs, catches treats in her mouth, shakes paws, twirls around, rolls over, mostly walks well on the leash, and when we in the yard, absolutely steadfastly refuses to come when called…. :-)

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Alan! January 16, 2007 at 7:00 pm

Synchronicities again.

Best post I’ve read for a while, and very timely.

Best wishes for the new year.

;-)

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christine January 16, 2007 at 11:29 pm

oh my. Joy was right. This post did get lots of comments. And I’m behind!

BridgeGirl, if you click on NLP in this post, you can read about it. NeuroLinguistic Programming. (It’s late, so I might have that wrong.) It’s practical, and it works. I highly recommend some of the processes.

Dave, Thanks for that comment/post! (You added much to my writing. Time to start your own blog, huh?) No, I’m not saying that emotions are bad at all. I just know how we can revel in the beliefs that they are all “the truth.” Great insights there!

barbb, yes, printing out these long posts will be necessary for some! (especially you tactile poets!) Thanks for the thoughts and the honesty. Of course all of this takes time and persistence. Otherwise, we wouldn’t have to write about it!

Danielle, well hooray for improvement! Thanks for the thoughts and funny story!

Anne, Always great to get a pet metaphor in issues like these! Thanks for sharing all that. Truly delightful. (My dog is just kind of a free spirit, and we have an agreement that she gets to be like that… but mostly is obedient and listens!) And yes, i agree on that awareness thing. Constant.

Hi Alan! And thanks for the very high compliment. There are lots of good posts out there! And happy new year to you as well…

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Michelle June 24, 2007 at 3:50 pm

Christine,

This was a great post. Thank you. Simple and to the point.

I have been walking my spirutal path for maybe 15 years now and I find that the biggest obstacle in my why to healing (I have been sick for about 10 of those years, very sick for the last 6)is that to truly embrace this path you have to first acknowledge your own worth, value, talent and unlimited strenght and power.

What I appreciate about your writing is that you seem to have found a way to embrace all of these things in yourself. You can see and feel the value in your thoughts. If you didn’t, you wouldn’t be sharing them or teaching. :)

I on the other hand, am a smart, still youngish woman who is convinced that everyone else knows better than I do (Even thought many people in my life often come to me for advice or insight, and I am very often able to assist them)I am always seeing out teachers, books, blogs (wink) to tell me what I already know and to help me get back on track so that I will heal already.

But it is not so much fear of rejection from someone else(you used the example above of a writer not trying to get published for fear of being turned down)I can’t get past rejecting myself.

anyway – clearly I have lots of work to do and I pray that it does not take me another 15 years to get to the point, but I just wanted to write and say thank you for sharing your insights and offer up a round of applause to you for acknowledging yourself as writer, musician and teacher and for having the courage to share your perspectives with those who are willing to listen.

As an artist, you are uniuqe, and if you didn’t express what what inside of you, the world would surely miss out.

(Now – if I could only find a way to believe that about myself and begin to act on it, then I would start making some real progress back to health)

But your writing was another good push in that direction.

Best of luck to you,

Michelle

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Christine Kane June 24, 2007 at 5:03 pm

Thank you Michelle. And I know what you mean. I always learned so much because I constantly put myself in the part of the student. At one point, I really intended and chose to start seeing myself as a teacher. It was a practical conscious choice. I *still* read other people and still look to others for help because I (and you!) will never be done, but it has been hugely liberating to not look to the approval of others and to start honoring my choices and decisions. I absolutely KNOW you can do the same – and therein lies all healing! Thanks for your kind words. I’m honored to be one of those voices that gets you “back on track.” We all need those voices – no matter what stage of growth in which we find ourselves.

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Danny January 11, 2010 at 4:25 am

There’s a certain “good” feeling in negative emotions and I don’t mean feeling good as in moving up the emotional scale. I mean sometimes it feels easier to dwell in negative feelings, like doubts and worries. It’s these situations that are extremely challenging and cause you to not be able to move forward. In these situations I’ll try to pull out every trick I can think of to not let my mind get lost in a pool of negativity, because you know once you fall in it gets harder to get out. I’m glad you are sharing your emotional awareness. I think that’s the key in all of this, just to be aware so that we can consciously choose how we want to feel.

I’ve had the experience of being in a fantastic state of love that was so powerful that I didn’t care about a negative thing in the world. I’m still riding that wave :). And it’s my goal to stay up as long as I can. I’ve learned that with practice, I can maintain good feelings for much longer than I ever have before and it’s really wonderful. And I use my awareness to not let things get to me. But it’s something that requires much perseverance, but I believe the rewards are worthwhile. I’m just sharing my perspective to show my appreciation for the subject.

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