Several years ago – in the course of one year – I had two encounters with my gut instinct that ultimately showed me my authentic direction – or what Martha Beck would call my “North Star.”
I was headlining at a big music festival. After my set, I was hanging out backstage and the place began to buzz with a rumor of a visit from a legendary rock star. He was going to do an acoustic set after the final scheduled performance was over.
People went nuts. This was HUGE!
Even though I tried, I couldn’t muster any excitement.
In fact, I had kind of an existential crisis. A year or two before this moment, I would’ve died for this! What was wrong with me?!
Well, for one, I was tired. I had my heart set on driving to the airport and getting an early flight home. And truth be told, I wasn’t THAT big of a fan of this very famous rock star.
So, amidst all the hubbub, I went out to my rental car, and I sat quietly. I asked myself WHY I would stay. And the ONLY reason I could find was this:
So that I could tell my friends about it and brag to other musicians and songwriters.
That was all I could come up with.
I decided to leave.
Not an easy thing to do. There weren’t many people in my life who would’ve supported this choice. (In other words, I didn’t have a coach at the time!)
I drove a few hours back to a friend’s house, had an awesome dinner with her, and got an early flight out the next morning. With the exception of a few remaining critical voices in my head – I had a great time.
Second Encounter a few months later:
A friend and I were driving around my city’s downtown looking for a place to eat. We were chatting casually while sitting at a light, and I looked out the window and saw Deepak Chopra. I remember shouting, “Ohmigod! That’s Deepak Chopra!” Without even thinking, I jumped out of the car and ran toward him. (You can read the rest of that story here.)
These days people often ask me about the seemingly effortless evolution of my songwriting career into writing, coaching and mentoring women in their lives and businesses.
Even though it makes no rational sense, I tell them about these two encounters. My own instinct showed me the direction I wanted to go. It was just up to me to finally stop shoving my woo-woo audiobooks under the passenger seat of my car any time someone rode with me – and start sharing more of my own healing and work. Which I did.
My ego hated me for it.
But my spirit has never looked back.
People often wait for their life purpose to be revealed to them by some oracle or divine voice. In my experience, you ARE the oracle. You ARE the divine voice. The trick is to trust yourself when you’re sending guidance your way.