Moving Beats Brooding - Christine Kane

In my early years of performing, I had good nights and I had lousy nights.

The lousy nights were almost always something invented in my head. I’d mess up a part of a new song. Or I’d try some new stage banter that didn’t get a laugh.

Then, rather than moving on with my performance, my brain (or rather, my ego) would mark that moment so as not to forget that I messed up. Like a teenage girl marking her new issue of Lucky with those colorful tabs that say “YES!” on them. Only these tables said, “DOH!”

So, even though I had moved on to another song later in the show, the voice in my head would continue berate me for that one mistake or gaff. By the end of the night there would be two or three of those pink tabs hanging off the “pages” of my show. I would spend much of the evening trying to forget they were there.

At some point, I just stopped doing that. I made the decision to cut it out. I no longer “feel” mistakes like I used to because I can release them the second they happen. Contrary to what your ego would tell you, this is the fastest way to get back in the present moment and give a great performance – or succeed in anything!

Turns out football players have similar challenges.

I came across an interview with Otto Graham, former quarterback for the Cleveland Browns. He was asked to name the most important trait of a great pass receiver in football.

His answer?

“A damn short memory.”

What he meant was that during the game, the receiver had to be able to forget about the humiliation of the last pass he missed or accidentally dropped. He had to spend the game completely in the present moment so that he could catch the pass that was heading to him right now.

In other words — moving beats brooding.

Great advice for athletes, artists, or anyone, no?

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  • Dave Zeman / Schipper

    I love it… but what if you taped yourself and listened to it later…. Erase… HA…

    Have a great time on your trip with you hubby….

    Peace.

    Dave

  • Catherine Cantieri, Sorted

    So very true! I’m working on a blog post in my mind about how creative folks and organizers both tend to be perfectionists — which means we all tend to beat ourselves up. That Otto Graham quote is priceless!

    Andrea, I really love what you said about doing others a disservice when we focus on our perceived mistakes in the past. Focusing on those mistakes is sort of making it all about us, only in a negative way. I think it’s the ego trying to run the show again. I gotta give the ego this: it’s persistent! πŸ˜‰

  • Mindful Mimi

    Totally agree with this. Brooding makes you get stuck in the past. Brooding focuses on a little thing. It stops you from moving as you say. Sometimes when you ask people about the ‘mistake’ they can’t even remember it or didn’t notice it in the first place. We should not completely ignore it. Just taking a note and moving on is the best thing to do. It is not always easy though πŸ™‚

  • Sue

    Great post Christine! Hey, just like when your guitar broke on the flight to St. Louis. You were amazingly calm. You moved on so quickly (I however, felt horrible! :))
    I’ll review this before speaking too! Thanks!

  • Thauna

    Oh yes, great advice for all of us, whether or not we “perform” in front of people. Well, I guess in a sense we all perform in front of people in some way. I brood over my mistakes way to often and it’s something I am striving to become mindful of and let go. I worry that I’ve said too much or haven’t said enough…that is usually what I brood about. It’s funny because it playing out in my dreams too. I think I’ll add “moving on” to my list of little mind chants to help get me unstuck. Thanks!

  • Sunrise Sister

    Great advice – the quarterback, and pass receiver – a great story to illustrate the importance of the present moment. I would have gone a long way before I figured that one out on my own. Thanks!

  • Tim

    Great advice. I know I tend to overthink a lot of things in my life – much of this thinking is not necessarily the good kind. Thankfully, I’ve gotten better at not letting criticism get the best of me. However, I tend to let other things bother me. Oh well, time to get moving.

  • CJ

    Christine, as usual your blogs are timely. This post unstuck me. I am totally brooding right now and it’s sucking the life out my precious creative time (my husband has the kids so I can write…and I am brooding, overwhelmend etc) I think you should write a series of posts just on the ego games. The ego is so SO SO SO tricky. Thank you again for an enlightening, uplifting post! Andrea, I love the image “walk lightly in the world”. What a wonderfully liberating set of words…

  • Cheryl

    Man I needed to read that. I so get caught up in the brooding. I’m one broody broad! πŸ˜‰

  • Bev Barnett

    I like the comparison to athletics. I alwyas say its not the mistakes you make that define you, its how you recover. Now, I just need someone to remind ME of that now and again!

    Thx Christine – I’m enjoying your blog.

  • Cyndee

    Thank you Christine!
    This is exactly what I needed to hear.
    It is not so much that I have made a mistake. It is my overwhelming fear & obsession (there I said it πŸ™‚ of the possibility of making a mistake or saying or doing something wrong or more to the point, someone close to me saying I did.
    Thank you….I will keep on reminding myself of this story..

  • Andrea

    YES! I practice this every day at work, in front of students, preparing labs….I remind myself that if I am less than perfect, the students can relax a bit, take their own risks and feel free to learn from their mistakes.
    I have been practicing this with the “economy” since I have had to make some fast decisions as one of the executors of my mother’s will. I have been deliberately making quick decisions with the information at hand and then not second guessing what I decided. It really lets you walk lightly in the world.

  • Christine Kane

    Thanks all! You know, there’s really some great truth in the “fake it til you make it” model. I always tell my coaching clients that people (audiences, clients, students) love to be led. If you falter, then they get confused cuz you’re no longer leading them! But when you ARE the rock star or the great speaker or teacher or whatever — you can mess up all you want and they’ll love you more for moving on and teaching them how its done! (I am often approached by people who say things like, “Yea, I remember when I saw you in Charlotte and the sound stopped working and you just walked out into the crowd and played acoustic…” They can appreciate that everyone experiences error, but they can adapt, move on, etc – and not spend their time upset about it!)

  • Elaine

    Great advice indeed!

    In the past I’ve fallen into this trap when delivering trainings and something doesn’t go well. The voices in my head would spend the rest of the day ‘beating’ me up about it… I’d then drive home re-living the whole event over and over!

    Today I’m a lot kinder to myself and I know that it’s okay – just move on and accept my imperfections – and I’m learning to live in present moment!

    I like being imperfect – Yay!

  • Laura

    A great point! I see this sometimes in my speech students (not that I ever fall into this) — they make a small error in their presentation, that nobody really noticed or cared about, then they apologize, which just expands the mistake way out of proportion and creates discomfort for the audience. Thanks for reminding me of the multiplier effect “brooding” inflicts. Hugs!

  • Andrea|Empowered Soul

    Such a great point, Christine! The funny thing is that we’re doing others (audiences, students, clients etc.) such a huge disservice if we allow ourselves to get stuck on what happened ten minutes, ten hours or ten days ago! We’re not allowing ourselves to be in the moment with those we serve, nor are we truly participating with them in their experience … we’re too busy “making up” the “failures” of the past!

    Shake it off. Move on. Love this post.

    Blessings,
    Andrea

  • Lance

    Great reminder Christine! I notice this if I’m up in front of a group. And the best thing to do is forget it and move on – almost always – people don’t even realize. Yet – if I stop and make note of it – everyone becomes fully aware – and I’m much more likely to hang onto it. And what a waste of time – spent going over and over something that went “wrong”. While it can be good to review sometimes – to see how we can improve – it’s important not to let it become all-consuming.

    Have a great weekend Christine!

  • Tre

    YES! Great advice. Practical advice. When I taught middle school, I’d care home with me and often til 2 am the stories throughout the day of students I didn’t reach. And in a class of 32 (heinous system..why?? that’s another mission), the reality: something was reaching at least 3/4 if not more….so at least 24 or so I was reaching. And the others I know felt supported even if they didn’t get the lesson. And I’d work my tail off trying to conjore up ways I could reach them. But when I realized I was spending every last minute thinking through how to reach those 8, it was clear to me something had to change. In fact I opened up a learning center to work with students with ‘extra needs’ πŸ™‚ but even then I took home with me and stewed over the ones I didn’t reach. Years later I got letters from the parents and sometimes the students thanking me for caring so much. The very ones I thought I’d lost completely and failed. My biggest need now is to release a post. Let it go. So I coulda got more facts (great english eh?) So I coulda interviewed just one more. So I could have really honed in a woman’s perspective (duh I am one). The more I’m learning to let go…I”m flying and falling but really only feeling the wind. The pavement scuffs a bit and then I’m back in the air..wheeee πŸ™‚
    Thanks for this πŸ™‚